In his book, Wayne Dyer, author of Manifest Your Destiny, states that genuine trust involves letting go of all conditioning and that by accepting our failures and confusion we are dismissing any false illusion of trust.
Trust is a major issue in relationships. We all want to be surrounded by compassionate souls. When we are disappointed by others and feel used or abused, are we doing it to ourselves?
Let me give you an example. You’re home with some one you’ve been dating for a couple of months and he/she walks out, barefoot or not, for no apparent good reason. Wouldn’t you look out for them out of the kindness of your heart, especially if it’s in the middle of the night? Locking the door behind them and turning your light out on them is not exactly an example of compassion in my book; but who am I to judge? What am I missing here?
Intra-relationships are just as misleading as interrelationships. After weeks submitting to Writer, Director, and Producer in marketing, film, and media job postings online with my newly revised Resumé, I finally got an e-mail response. Guess what? It was just a con job. The fact that there were many duped like me does not make me feel better. I am just glad to have experienced being with such a great group of people all trying to better ourselves in America. But the job was a misleading false representation of ‘events.’ In actuality, this company is using us, the good fish in the sea, our bright images and personal resources, to go out and steal people’s identity. They not only do not pay you but use you to gain profit and put you at risk in many ways, all with your permission.
I just did that to myself. First, I was fooled by someone to believe they were compassionate, when in reality they are not, and then fooled by equally ruthless con artists thinking I was finally getting into the ‘real world’ scene as an events coordinator, social content or corporate writer, -the jobs advertised for and responded to.
I wish Wayne Dyer’s book, Manifest Your Destiny, which I started reading a day before these episodes, will help me avoid doing more damage to myself. I thought I was trusting the universe by responding to the job interview email appointment. I thought I was trusting the universe by believing in the false friendship of a person who stated would do as described above if I ever walked out. By the way, this is an anecdote from the wax therapist I visit monthly.
What’s next after I accept my failure and feel confused?
My destiny is a knowing, I understand, a knowing of peace and harmony, a knowing of achieving the self-realized state. And, I don’t have to go out and get it, it will come to me as I evolve. I hope these depressive episodes that have pierced my heart allowing the light to gush in, as Rumi states in one of his poems, will radiate and attract positive energy that matches the state of peace and harmony, of contentment, that is my self-realized soul.